Fuck, I hate how bad I am at this game. Everyone keeps telling me I have good tech (it's only good when I don't flub it which is a very high % of the time also DUH I CAN DUMB DIDDLY MULTISHINE BUT WHEN IS THAT USEFUL) and that I can combo pretty well (No I fucking don't, I drop free chaingrabs and STUPID easy followups) but I drop mad edgeguards and just fall for the DUMBEST things like aerialing high on shield and backthrow [insert gimp here].
It's fucking frustrating, ESPECIALLY when I know it's coming but do the EXACT SAME FUCKING THING EVERY TIME. I know what's coming, I know what to do to avoid it, but I don't. I want to punch myself in my fucking stupid face and chop off my hands and eyes every time this type of shit happens because I cannot believe how stupid and unwilling to learn I am. I literally yell at myself to fucking shinegrab when I see a shield because it works in 80% of situations but I don't. I yell at myself to fucking aerial past shield and I don't. I yell at myself to not jump or side b near ledge but I just keep doing it. Is that the definition of insanity? Godddddd
I can give credit where it's due, but when I see it coming from a mile away and fall for it anyways, I just know I didn't deserve the stock. I just know when my Fox playing opponent spawns and spams lasers during invincibility that I can just lightshield, but I don't. I know that when I dash dance for a grab I should wavedash down to bait a spotdodge, but I don't. I know that I shouldn't roll to center stage when I'm getting tech chased, but HURR DURR I do it. I keep losing to new players that aren't even trying and I've been playing for a year and I've gotten nowhere. I fucking hate, hate, hate how stupid I am.