already doing so 
What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
perhaps shorty's armored himself against feeling emotions. afraid of that sense of "throwing off", of being thrown off his little grid where there is a strict check on all the little circulations or whatever else you'd wish to call the movements involved in his economy of desire. i thought set was a good word as not only is he good with money and missing a conscience and potentially successful in this world but the description of a face having "set" can be drawn out to cover the whole body-- one's whole musculature could be set, rigid, fixed (in a word, characterological, as guarded against that liquid disintegration, that wave of emotion). probly could have smth to do with that 7 year old comment but i'm not pressing that point any further bc even one's unconscious lies
perhaps shorty's armored himself against feeling emotions. afraid of that sense of "throwing off", of being thrown off his little grid where there is a strict check on all the little circulations or whatever else you'd wish to call the movements involved in his economy of desire. i thought set was a good word as not only is he good with money and missing a conscience and potentially successful in this world but the description of a face having "set" can be drawn out to cover the whole body-- one's whole musculature could be set, rigid, fixed (in a word, characterological, as guarded against that liquid disintegration, that wave of emotion). probly could have smth to do with that 7 year old comment but i'm not pressing that point any further bc even one's unconscious lies
This is something I've also seriously considered. Although I don't know how to figure out if that's even the case. Prob therapy or something
"I am a sick man.... I am a spiteful man. I am an unattractive man. I believe my stomach is diseased. However, I know nothing at all about my disease, and do not know for certain what ails me. I don't consult a doctor for it, and never have, though I have a respect for medicine and doctors. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, sufficiently so to respect medicine, anyway (I am well-educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am superstitious). No, I refuse to consult a doctor from spite. That you probably will not understand. Well, I understand it, though. Of course, I can't explain who it is precisely that I am mortifying in this case by my spite: I am perfectly well aware that I cannot "pay out" the doctors by not consulting them; I know better than anyone that by all this I am only injuring myself and no one else. But still, if I don't consult a doctor it is from spite. My stomach is bad-- well, let it get worse." -tuffy 2015
I've gone to a bunch of doctors man. Like, so many. I got a shelf of like 8 bottles of pills and 4 bottles of these syrups but none of them work. I've had CAT scans, MRIs, full body scans, brain scans, had an endoscopy and a colonoscopy, I've done acupuncture, completely changed my diet and haven't had a soda in almost 2 years, prepare nearly all my own meals, buy 100% organic groceries, I go to the gym and have a personal trainer
like
what
Fake it.Without being too detailed...this.
If this has to be explained to you...
It doesn't, I figured that out years ago. It just took a while before I was any good at it. The thread was the sharing of an article though and for discussion, not a plea for help or direction. I'm not saying it's not welcome lol, but your stance of "hurr if you didn't get it already then ya better hit the books" didn't make any sense in the context of the thread and what's going on.
