Confession Thread v2

apparently I don't really have one, TMI guy is well endowed and have only gagged twice because he moved but kept going. He doesn't believe that I've only done it with one other person. :/

ive gone through this. Instead of pills though I would take like 5-6 dabs in a row multiple times a day and just fry my brain. I think it was a way to escape reality and the business of everything around me. My life has been so "go-go-go" these past couple years and dabbing would turn off my mind and slow my life down.

I've lucked out, I have an addictive personality but I can't take most pain pills because I'm allergic to a select few and am too afraid to try the others recreationally because who knows how I'll react. I don't drink to get drunk anymore and I avoid stimulants as much as possible because I already naturally have a lot of energy and they make my heart race really bad. My biggest vice is weed. I smoke it everyday and go on 3 day - week long breaks about one time a month to gather myself but I need to cut it out of my life entirely. My workload is nothing short of overwhelming, it's starting to plague my mind when I'm doing other things. I've been smoking regularly for 7 and a half years and I still have no tolerance so it's easy for me to abuse it. I'll smoke two bowls with my girlfriend and be annihilated.

Jesus christ, enough about me. It's good that you're recognizing who is toxic in your life. It's hard to make such a drastic change and eliminate someone from your life but sometimes it's absolutely vital for your health. Some friends just have different end-goals than you and it's hard to keep things working when they don't align with one another. Some friends are fine with their current state and aren't trying to progress towards anything. 

i once got into an argument with some friends about how awesome it would be for them to be smoking (weed) parents when they grow up. i was fucking shocked that two extremely smart people (go to really good schools) would think it would be fine to be a "cool smoking" parent. i've smoked plenty of times before and some of my greatest friends smoke all the time, but i don't get it. no one is fun when they are high

my aunt and uncle smoke  nightly once their kids are asleep. They've done it fkr 20+ years. My uncle is extremely successful and weed does nothing to take away from his character.

some people can handle their stuff. People don't notixe a difference between when I'm high and when im not because im ~*outgoing*~. I only need to stop now because my workload is too much. Once the burden is lightened I'll be back to smoking more.

Unfortunately my whole group of friends aside from my close friends who live in other states, have all started to get into meth. So I've just had to cut them all out of my life entirely because I realized if I didn't I would just start using it all the time too. Now the close friends I have online that I've known for a decade now is all I've got. I haven't tried to make new friends in person in so long that I've forgotten how to even do it. My birthday is tomorrow and now I've got no plans besides going out to dinner with my family. Both my parents were meth heads before I was born and they told me that once they started smoking it instead of just snorting, they became way more hooked and that's the road my friends seem to be heading down. 

Plus with this pissing/kidney issue I've got going on at the moment, life's going to be a little grey for a while.  

Lol, just saw this. My current guy doesn't believe me when I said it's only been one other person that I've done that with because it's apparently THAT good (no teeth, no reflex). He's been with a lot of girls (not what I want to think about) so it's a confidence booster to the head game. I felt insecure when I first did it for him and couldn't tell if the sounds were good or bad. Apparently I'm a natural.  :D